My List to Better Myself

Soooooo another one bites the dust!

I have completed goal 11. Baptize Rayah

I recently returned from a very quick trip to Colorado. The main purpose was to be there to see my little Sissy graduate from high school and since I was going to be there anyway everyone decided that it wouldbe the perfect time for me to baptize little Rayah Ruby. Great idea.




Though the trip was fast it went by very smoothly. I got to see Mari graduate which was AWESOME, I wouldn't have missed that for anything. I'm soooooooooooo proud of her. Then the day before I left my brother's best friend Tobias and I baptized my niece Rayah. The ceremony was at St. Cajetan's Catholic Church- The exact same church both my brother and I were baptized at and coincidentally enough Father Tomas, the exact same priest that baptized both me and Tony was the priest who baptized Rayah! It was pretty cool.

She looked beautiful, the day before my sister in law Keziah and I went out and bought her, her Christening dress along with shoes and all the proper baptismal items. It was nice bonding time for us. The ceremony was nice, Rayah of course cried the entire time especially when the water was poured on her head. lol. But all in all it was nice. I am officially her God Mother and Toby is officially her God Father. Its a relief to finally have that done.

She cant say Nina so she calls me Nana. It melts my heart. I wish I could see her everyday.

Oh yaa so as one of the God parents it was my job to come up with a baptismal name for her and after thinking about every name I could and not liking any of them my genius of step mom suggested "Nicole". Perfect, especially because MY middle name is NICOLE! So my precious little God Daughter is named after her Nina!

So my last blog post was October 4th 2009.... REALLY?!

It seems as though I have let things get away from me since graduation. :-( Things have been tough and only seem to be getting tougher.. despite living out of a box for the past 10 months it seems as though Kevin and I are back in the same position of uncertainty we were in before graduation. Kevin's internship is up in July so yet again he is looking for a position *of course all he can find is more internships.* Its almost like things came full circle... completely...

Again his current employer is showing interest in making his stay permanent but again it all depends on a thousand different factors with a thousand different scenarios. We're trying not to get our hopes up.

As for me, I'm just along for the ride. I will go wherever Kevin goes. That is the sacrifice I am making for out relationship and I am completely ok with it... dont really even see it as a sacrifice really.. my father on the other hand.... "You're letting your degree go to waste, you should worry about you now and your relationship later" yaaaaaaaa cuz that worked out so well for you didnt it dad?

Anyway....... So my goals list... even though I havnt been blogging I have been getting some goals out of the way... not as many as I'd like but a few...

10. Grow my hair out to the middle of my back

Its sooooooo long now I love it! Its been forever since I've had long hair. I think Kevin would prefer me to cut it short again but.. NOT GONNA DO IT!!!!!!!! hahaha

26. Own more professional looking clothes

Ok so I'm altering the definition of "professional" a little bit on this one. Since working at Nordstrom I have had a complete wardrobe makeover. I'm wearing things I never would have had the guts to wear a year ago. Since I am in sales and my product is clothing I have to dress the part and sell the goods. I get a lot of it for free and a lot of it I pay for but let me tell you... these clothes have done wonders for my confidence!!!!!!! They are still somewhat casual however they are nicer then anything I ever owned before. This still counts right? ;-)

43. Get a massage

I've been having a lot of back problems lately...*the bed I sleep on hates me* Well after complaining for months about it Kevin's parents bought me a massage at massage envy.. It was wonderfullll and very therapeutic.

66. Go on a real romantic date with Kevin

For our 4 year anniversary Kevin and I went all out. We got dressed up really fancy and went to dinner. We got sushi at Pirhana again and it was phenomenal again, then we walked the shops at the Arlington Highlands and stopped at Houlihans for drinks and french fries haha and ended the night by checking into a hotel room...No details there. :-) It was perfect and much needed.

89. Own a Wii

The parental bought Kevin and I a Wii for Christmas! woooooooo.

99. Get student loans organized so I know who needs to get paid and when

Everything is organized and easy. I have income based repayment and only have to pay about $200 a month for all of them which is nice.. Kevin doesnt have to pay a penny since he doesnt make very much so he got all his loans deferred. Sweet.

I've also let some get away from me... and I'm mad at myself for that..

4. Read a book a month [10/33]

This one really kills me.. I wanted to so bad to keep up with this goal but since my life got turned upside down I couldnt keep up with it. I cant wait to get my own place with my own space and my books out of storage and start reading again.

I want to try and get back into this, I think it will be good for me. So get on me about it! Just scream at me "JESSICA GET YOUR LAZY ASS TO THAT COMPUTER AND BLOGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" hahaha

Its been a stressful month to say the least but I did manage to get my book read for August.

Holidays on Ice by David Sedaris

Its a short read (I read it in 3 hrs) but a funny one. The book is a compilation of short stories surrounding holidays and gives you a glimpse into the lives of other people, and it plays with almost every emotion possible. It made me anxious for the holiday season but at the same time I dread it. Lol. It reminded me a great deal of the movie "The Ten" its a comedy about ten different stories that have to do with the ten commandments. If you havnt seen it you're not missing much but its good for a nice chuckle here and there.

Read this after the holiday season and you will soon realize exactly how effed up the rest of the world is in comparison to your family gatherings. haha

I have still managed to accomplish 2 goals.

I know I am really early on this one but since Im supposed to be moving this month I figured Id better get a head start so I don't have to worry about it later in the month. So this month I read The Virgin Suicides by Jeffery Eugenides

I am a big fan of this book. Its very unique and Weird and I love it. I defintely recommend this book if you're into that sort of thing.

After I read the book I watched the movie.. I had seen the movie a long time ago but couldnt really remember a lot about it. I was extremely pleased with how true to the book the movie was until the end. The movie left out what I believe a crucial part of the ending causing the movie to lack the true emotion the author was looking for.

With my Amazon gift card that I got from Andrew for my birthday I bought a bunch of books and one of them was Snuff by Chuck Palahniuk. It pissed me off because when I ordered it, it said that it was paperback. When I got it not only was it a hardback book but it is also from the Orange County Library... barcode and all... annoying. So I told Boggan if he wanted it he could have it.

Anyway.......

so I read that as my book for June. It was kinda hard to read and made me feel extremely dirty the entire time.. dirty as in rolling in the mud dirty. Chuck is very good at detailing his scenes and this entire book is set in a basement full of half naked men waiting for their chance to screw a porn star... ya, gross.

I haven't fully decided how I feel about the book.. Im not sure that I fully understand what happened in the end. I need to ponder it some more.. It definitely wasn't my favorite Palahniuk but I enjoyed it I guess...