My List to Better Myself

So my last blog post was October 4th 2009.... REALLY?!

It seems as though I have let things get away from me since graduation. :-( Things have been tough and only seem to be getting tougher.. despite living out of a box for the past 10 months it seems as though Kevin and I are back in the same position of uncertainty we were in before graduation. Kevin's internship is up in July so yet again he is looking for a position *of course all he can find is more internships.* Its almost like things came full circle... completely...

Again his current employer is showing interest in making his stay permanent but again it all depends on a thousand different factors with a thousand different scenarios. We're trying not to get our hopes up.

As for me, I'm just along for the ride. I will go wherever Kevin goes. That is the sacrifice I am making for out relationship and I am completely ok with it... dont really even see it as a sacrifice really.. my father on the other hand.... "You're letting your degree go to waste, you should worry about you now and your relationship later" yaaaaaaaa cuz that worked out so well for you didnt it dad?

Anyway....... So my goals list... even though I havnt been blogging I have been getting some goals out of the way... not as many as I'd like but a few...

10. Grow my hair out to the middle of my back

Its sooooooo long now I love it! Its been forever since I've had long hair. I think Kevin would prefer me to cut it short again but.. NOT GONNA DO IT!!!!!!!! hahaha

26. Own more professional looking clothes

Ok so I'm altering the definition of "professional" a little bit on this one. Since working at Nordstrom I have had a complete wardrobe makeover. I'm wearing things I never would have had the guts to wear a year ago. Since I am in sales and my product is clothing I have to dress the part and sell the goods. I get a lot of it for free and a lot of it I pay for but let me tell you... these clothes have done wonders for my confidence!!!!!!! They are still somewhat casual however they are nicer then anything I ever owned before. This still counts right? ;-)

43. Get a massage

I've been having a lot of back problems lately...*the bed I sleep on hates me* Well after complaining for months about it Kevin's parents bought me a massage at massage envy.. It was wonderfullll and very therapeutic.

66. Go on a real romantic date with Kevin

For our 4 year anniversary Kevin and I went all out. We got dressed up really fancy and went to dinner. We got sushi at Pirhana again and it was phenomenal again, then we walked the shops at the Arlington Highlands and stopped at Houlihans for drinks and french fries haha and ended the night by checking into a hotel room...No details there. :-) It was perfect and much needed.

89. Own a Wii

The parental bought Kevin and I a Wii for Christmas! woooooooo.

99. Get student loans organized so I know who needs to get paid and when

Everything is organized and easy. I have income based repayment and only have to pay about $200 a month for all of them which is nice.. Kevin doesnt have to pay a penny since he doesnt make very much so he got all his loans deferred. Sweet.

I've also let some get away from me... and I'm mad at myself for that..

4. Read a book a month [10/33]

This one really kills me.. I wanted to so bad to keep up with this goal but since my life got turned upside down I couldnt keep up with it. I cant wait to get my own place with my own space and my books out of storage and start reading again.

I want to try and get back into this, I think it will be good for me. So get on me about it! Just scream at me "JESSICA GET YOUR LAZY ASS TO THAT COMPUTER AND BLOGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" hahaha